shattered

My heart shattered, because of you.

You lied. And the truth came to me by itself. I didn't went to search for it. Maybe it wants to tell me something.

I have your picture as my wall paper. And my lil brother saw it when he came to on my computer to execute Warcraft for us to link Dota game. Maybe due to Facebook's friend suggest and crap like that, he saw you, of course you have friends in common, just like me. And he asked me if that is you. I said yes. And my heart shattered into thousands pieces at the same time. Apparently, you had add me and blocked me right after. And you told me that you don't mess with facebook anymore.

It's not a matter whether you use it or not. It's that you block almost every channel of communication between us. INTENTIONALLY! Now if you just block me in your phone too, then I'm totally gone from your life. No one will mention about me. No one around you know my existance. Not even your brother who once see me knows my name. Just evaporated from your world, as if I've never existed. And you can put me behind your mind and move on, move on. How convenient for you. If you just change your mind about me, then I'm conveniently forever gone. How nice...


... PERHAPS YOU JUST DON'T WANT ME IN YOUR WORLD...
at the very beginning.


everything seems like a joke now...
a joke you made, on me.
the only one laughing, is you.


you hurt me... again
I hurt myself... again

Truth always hurt.
If I close my eyes and reject its existance,
will I live happier blindfold?

..........
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But it doesn't matter.
I'll still be here.
I'll still trust you regardless.
Until the wind of changes, blow the pieces of my shattered heart, away.

I will pretend that I never met you online, but only in person, like regular lovers.
Maybe I will pretend that you don't know how to use internet, so I don't have any ways of contact for you online. Ya, I think this one is better, and I can make a good laugh about it. This IT geek is not on internet~ how funny!!!


Watching Bleach now. Somehow that beginning song kinda comfort me.
Let's hope....
"Someday we will understand each other." any why we do the things we do.

[Love you]