Hurricane Richard

Hurricane Richard came and went.  Left behind broken and uprooted trees with flying around roof tops and slanted posts.  A nightmare of wind and rain.  Sorry to say, but the experience is quite new and exciting for me... @@...  The only not so good part is to deal with what Richard left behind.  Disaster...  However, I believe that we should consider ourselves lucky.  Although Richard pull us into another financial crisis of the construction we need to deal with the netting, on top of what we already owe for the house.  It's really killing... to people's enthusiasm of a better tomorrow.  Should I say the same thing again?  Keep being positive... things can't get worse... (Although I know things can... but to just keep the little faith I have...?)

Sunday, after a class at home, the family started to get the garden ready for the hurricane.  We tied fences of orchids, and pull them together like a fort, section by section. (And if they fly away... guess they will go together too = =) Then I went to bath, cuz it was raining, and I got wet.  Then dinner.  Then laptop... and then.... black out... O_O..  Well, I guess it's normal to have black out in a hurricane.  I mean, even for safety measure, we wont want to get shock of various reason...  so, black out... I then check my phone which I left by my room.  Your text!! From when @@!!??  How comes I didn't check earlier!!!! I texted you back... I know that I can sleep well with a smile on my face, cuz I heard from you, and you say.... "I miss you baby"~~ That was so sweet... I miss you too, always.  Around 9, bed time.  I wonder if you will sleep at regular time, since the hurricane may have an influence... but I still texted you good night, no reply.. hum maybe you're busy with the storm or slept already?  Later... hurricane gets near... trees around the house dancing, some cannot withstand the intensity and fell... especially those big old trees... book shelf fell... water sipping through the doors caps... front door, back door, 2nd floor stair door... we see the posts for garden netting are tilted... hearts down to the drain... terrible.  I feel scared.  I miss you... I want to be with you... although I shouldn't want to pull you into any unpleasant situation... but if I'm with you, maybe I will feel better. So I texted again... third text... no reply.  I miss you... After we kinda do all we can do, we went to bed.  I did carried a smile with me, thinking about you and your text.

Next morning, Monday, scene was terrible, just the garden itself...  I send you another text, no redly.  I hope that you are ok.  Monday was cleaning day, we rearrange the plants since the netting fell along with the tilted posts...  Mom say, at least ten thousands had gone in a few hours...  Ay...  But... but... at least the plants are unharmed.

Tuesday... report back to work... Still nothing from you... so worried.  I send another text... tell you to please reply me when you see it.  So worried... and kinda frustrated...  Mixed emotion... plz plz... let it only be that still blackout at your area so you hadn't charged your phone... or .... I don't know... please be ok....  no reply...  You better don't do it intentionally or just ignore my message, cuz I'm worried the hell outta me, and it ain't a heavenly feeling.  No reply.

Today, Wednesday... I cannot hold it any more.... why does my emotion grow so intense??  I called your office around 10:10... I was so nervous and hope that you won't get angry... >__<  Jeez... I can feel myself trembling... @@... why does this matter of making a phone call have such a great influence on me?  I called, and my heart exceed its speed limit... a gentleman answer and I asked for you.  He said that you are in a meeting and will be out in 30 minutes or 1 hour.  And asked if I would like to leave a message.  I didn't left a message... I mean, what should I say when I shouldn't be calling at the first place?  In whose name should I leave, when I'm a total stranger to ppl around you...  What if they asked who am I to you... will that caused you inconvenience... ...  Anyways, I was glad to hear that you are in a meeting.  That means you are fine... and you will contact me when you have the time to... I bet you have a million and one things to do... I bet that... maybe you hadn't charge your phone yet, cuz I just saw that my friend by West Landivar just got electricity.  Maybe you want to contact me when things on your hands are not that full, so you can enjoy your time with me...  Maybe you're punishing me for not reply you right away when you said you miss me?  Maybe you got so caught up with everything, and forgot to text me...  Maybe your phone fell into water during the storm, and didn't got my text at all... @@ But you should know that I must have been worried... that that feeling is killing me.  that with this crazy imagination I have, as you know, it's not helping me one bit after seeing what people's house become... but I know, I have a feeling that you are safe and alive... I just wanted to make sure... so I don't need to worry about it... Selfish Betty again eh.....?

I'm glad to find out that you are working.  So, I didn't called back... Merely knowing your existence is good.  Now, I will wait for you to contact me, cuz I think I send too much text...@@ I don't want to break your limit... I mean, you will contact me when you want to, right...



[Babe, I miss you too, and a lot.  Please don't let me wait too long.]

Love the chat

I got a text from you last night when I was doing my speech presentation.  Well, of course I saw it after the presentation and then was about 11:30.  You had already slept.  But I still texted back, so you can get it as soon as you wake up the next day.

Went to City today to take granny to eye doctor, dropped her off my Mama Chen, so that she can spend an elder lady chat time with the granny (Mama Chen's mom) over there.  Then we went to do some shopping.  Went to new Brodies, that's how we call it, around your home.  We like to go there, usually have everything that we look for, especially cosmetics.  I got granny's medication, my missed Neutrogena lotion and Neutrogena Alchohol-free toner... looks like I love Neutrogena huh~ When we left from there, we passed by your street, and I took a glimpse at your home.  Wish I can go and just get some hugs and some kisses form you.  Na... I started with a glimpse of your home, then I want to go meet you.  Then I will want to hug and kiss you.   Then I will want to spend more time with you.  Then... then... then...  You're a big temptation.  Although I'm a little upset about hearing Angie said that she saw you smoking in front of your office.  After tossing my mind around and around, I guess... there is nothing that I can do now... and I don't think you'll let me to... Just want to say... Babe, smoking is not good for you... and I really don't like it...

This aftersoon, as soon as I got home, I got a text from you.  Kinda like a reply I send yesterday.  You're waiting for a hair cut... I guess that's why you texted... to kill time eh?  Anyways, I like it still.  That you thought about me to kill time with, that I can be of help, that I have chance to chat with you.  We talk little about what we usually converse.  I told you a long list of things that I want to do with you... and babe, that aint all.  I want you to really accept me into your life by introducing me to your family and friends as girlfriend.  I want to take you home and let my family and friends know about you.  I want to be able to go to events with you, or at least that I dont need to find excuses to go and see you.  I want to be with you as a family.  I want to have our babies.  I want to travel with you.  I want to go to Italy with you.  I want to take you to Taiwan and let my relatives know about you.  I want to show you the night market.  I want to go with manga or animation expo with you.  I want to see you enjoying in the manga or animation world.  I want to see you enjoy playing your games.  I want to give crazy ideas of the business you plan to establish.  I want to walk dogs with you.  I want to give you a real morning or night kiss.  I want to introduce you to Angie, and hopefully you and Edward can have some geeky stuff to talk about when we do our lady chat.  I want to cook different dishes for you.. and amend Western dishes into vegi style... I want to... I want to....

I want to do many things with you... so many...
I hope I can have the chance.


[Love me... I will treasure your love like no one else.]

Short meet #7

Thursday afternoon.  About 5:20 you texted me to see where I was.  I was still in the office.  Have a workshop on Friday, so I was finishing up some work and prepare for the day after.  You asked if I wanted to go and have a to see you for a while.  Of course I am going!!! ^o^~ Hurry you said... So I was like flying, glad that rush hour had kinda passed consider the little vehicles Belmopan has, so I was able to get there smoothly, and quick.  Happened that you went to Punta Gorda and had just returned, so you're going home late.  And, I guess you have a little extra time before your bus.  :)  Doesn't matter, I'm merely glad that you suggest the meet.

It's the first time I stepped into your office.  And I saw your Kuchiki Byakua figure on your desk.  (to actually say out the name is kinda odd for me)  Em... I feel sorry for you that you have to find topic to talk about when you're with me... I got very quiet ><~  You played with my ring, the one that remind me of your ear-rings.  Apparently, my "sometimes-does-fly-away" rings is even too small for your pinky... like... can only go in half-way, while I can put it on thumb... @@  I like to look at you, maybe because I don't have much chance to.  And you kept on ask me "what"... and I got very shy... >///< ay... I just like to look at you, and feel that I'm with you man~~~ ><~~ You are a little sick.  You have sensitive teeth, so it hurts when you need to suck hard to give me a vamp... so... next time... (hum.. but if it hurts you, maybe I just shouldn't ask...)  But you left a slight slight vamp on my neck, can hardly see it.  Like a mosquito vamp.  And you hurt my tongue when we kissed (is that the Italian style??)  Maybe I'm crazy (Yes you do say that I am crazy), but even now when I feel the hurt on my tongue, I remembered that you've caused with a wild kiss, and that made me smile... >///<  Oh yes, by the way, I sat on your lap.  I love the closeness, and feel your arm around me.  I want to be yours...  I love hugs, I guess you found that out.  I love the comfortable and loving feeling of hugs.  It calms me down, and feel accepted.  And I'm glad that you enjoy your time with me.  And sorry that you missed your bus again and had to take regular bus... ><

I remember you walking toward bus station and say to me.  "Nice seeing you today..."  It's all worth it...
I told you two times... shily (I tried to look into your eyes, but I just feel so very shy) "I love you"~  You just smiled...  Your smiles are beautiful.  I want to frame it.  I want to make you happy, and smile or laugh more.... I will always do..... Babe, I'm falling deeper for you.

A week later

Hadn't heard from you for a while again.  And I had not text back since... Well, it's not that long as I imagine or feel... Just a few days.  You are on the lost again.  I've been thinking.  Maybe you got frightened by my sudden "I love you".  Or you just want to keep a distance and try not to let me fall deeper.  Or you are just be your normal self again, cold as you claimed.  Whichever is the case, let it be.  It's not like I gonna take back my words.

I have also been thinking.  About us.  This space you allowed is good for chill down, really.  I don't specifically love it, but I think I am doing better with you.  I think about you less by mean of quantity, but not less by mean of quality.  Maybe because I was focus on one of these long long time ago manga.  I've been reading a famous Japanese manga that started to get published like 30 years ago, and it had not finished.  It's not that long as Naruto or Bleach or One Piece, because it does not get published by chapter, but by book.  The drawing is detailed and the character is beautiful.  Well, one of those classic back in the days.  Yes, that is why I miss you less, as I also spend time on playing Facebook game.  This one actually can have spouse and child  by complete missions... Of course I name "my spouse" with your initials, and the child is to be born yet... but anyways it wont be a game of reality... I mean, you working in the farm and scare away bear? na~~~  Also, I also worked on my speech...  Although it's like a revision of what my mom had done before, but I need to make it my own.  I've been procrastinate it for a while now, and I need to present it in two weeks' time.  So these are what I have been doing lately.

What have you been up to lately?  During the long weekend, how have you been?  Have life throws you a pleasant ball?  I hope you are doing well...  As I've put on my twitter a while back... Whether you are to be with me or not, I want you to be happy.  And this will never change.  I hope you are doing fine... and of course I also hope that you think about me from time to time.

I love you

Today, I told you that I love you... I finally did!  I thought I will not say it until you tell me first, and making sure that it wont cause you any trouble... guess I decided to give it... Did I cause any pressure on you...? I don't want that... ... starting to wonder if I should let out the word on you that soon... 

I said that I want to tell you personally, but you seems don't like to hang on that "wondering what I will say" feeling, I mean who would... so you insisted me to tell you what I want to say at that moment through text... although I want to tell you personally.  Guess I will say it personally too... gosh~ suddenly feel so shy... >/////<

You gave me a smile and said thanks... nothing after that for today tho... but at least you give me a smile... ha ha~ I can sleep well tonight....


I love you, babe...
and I miss you a lot again...

A short meet #6

Yesterday afternoon... ha ha~~

You said you never stayed after work, but you will stay after for me.  So I rush over with my bike.  The bicycle rack is no where to be found...@@  Aw~~ I see you! I see you!!  The one that had been haunting my mind for so many weeks.  You are still your normal self.  With your yellow and black shirt too~ ha~~  I lock up the bike downstairs.  And we spend our little time together...  I can't stop kissing and hugging you, and tell you how much I miss you.  Most of the time you stayed silent, but I satisfy because I am with you, and you are smiling to me.  I love how you hold my hand so tight, and kiss me til I lost my mind... >/////<  But you still have to go home and so we had to greet goodbye...  Time spend with you feels like flying~~ I relive our sweet moments in my mind for ample times.  So last night, when I am alone I smile~ with that sweet smile thinking about you~ with that type of smile that someone would know that I'm so happy thinking about someone dearly.  Oh~ I love you~ and I miss you too~

I hope to see you soon babe...