Was watching a series tonight... And there is this sad scene that suppose to touch people's heart and those viewers who are so into the series suppose to cry... I find myself shying my eyes away from the screen... and shed no tear. Never knew that I am hurt that bad. Not shedding any tear may signify my feeling of, "I don't believe in fairytale anymore...", "I don't believe in love anymore...", "I don't believe that I will every find my Mr. Right...", "I don't want to love again..." and so on...
Gosh... I am so brutally hurt... my heart must be so bruised up... and with a little touch, it will hurt so much.
Yet my shying away from the screen tells me that I still have feeling. I want to avoid anything that reminds me anything about love...
[Why does love, such a wonderful feeling, have to be so hurtful...?]
I don't wish to be strong, I don't wish to learn the need of protecting myself, I don't wish to see the reality of the world, I don't wish to know the negative emotions... I want to be forever naive and happy... but I know I can't... and that is sad... because I am living... I'm alive on this world.
