Believe

Today is a busy day. Doesn't allow much time to miss you, but I still miss you in between. LOL. My leisure.

Got a warm greeting on facebook from one of my good friend that study abroad, with a big hug and called me babe. He always says, love you babe. And we know it's a warm friendly greeting. But it got me thinking. If this is why you keep me away from other things. That you don't want to cause my unnecessary alarm on other things like this, which may cause misinterpretation by someone that doesn't know about your friends or unique style of greeting each others. I don't know. But as I thought, what will you feel when you see that we-know-it's-only-a-warm-friendship-greeting, how would you interpret it? Then I cannot blame you to keep me away from things that... maybe you feel too minor to explain, and I will definitly ask. I think you know I'm sensitive in a way and with this creative head that cause unlimited imagination (am I praising myself? lol), anything can cause 101 questions. Maybe, in the end, it's all for our good. Or maybe not. Maybe I am finding excuses for you, so that I feel good. But I think it's possible. ... and it made myself feel better. So, let it be for now.


I will try not to be too sensitive with you. Cuz if I do, I may eventually drive myself crazy~ lol. You said take it easy, don't worry. I will just do that. I think I'm doing it better. Cuz you got lost anyways. = = Why kill myself to try to locate or find out how you are doing, while we both know that all you do is work, stay in your room and play game or watch TV. And if I have faith in you, that's the only thing I need to do. Believe in you. =) Still miss you.

... and I'm glad that you hadn't find out about this, and I wander if you will... feel kinda embarrased... of my too-much thoughts and talk to you on this journal... ha ha ha~ >///<...