It goes on...

Last night, you told me that I might be able to go. I was excited to hear that. But that samething that bothers me on twitter, I brought it up to you. You said to stop worrying and stop stalking you... Guess I stepped onto another of your bombs.... sigh...




This morning~ woke by your text at 5:50... I think. Getting ready to get out, got a lil speech from mom, Mic took me to the bus station, jump onto the bus...... waited by Letty home, then you picked me up.

We had a lot of fun when watching TV programs. I like how you hug me on the sofa. I gave you the two lucky band I made for you. Well, you seems to like the redo one with Italian flag and blue wording, as blue is the color for your favorite football team. And, as guessed, it's too short...QQ...(QQ=two big eyes with tears falling) You said that you may put it on when you loose your weight, and will use it as bookmark for now. Then you put them into your work bag.^o^ I'm so glad that you like it. Big smile up onto my face. =D We've fun time playing Life 4 Dead on xbox. My first time xbox. I like how you remind me what I should do, cuz I keep on walking into walls and rooms and fell behind by myself, you're patient. Oh ya, it's my very first time on controller!! We had fun watching the beginning of Mr. V... I really hadn't got the movie name you know, but we'll finish it up next time. I really like to be with you, and I love your smell, and your smile. Sweet things that we talked about marriage, kids, moving in together. You asked me when do I want to get married. I don't know. But I want to be with you. So, up to you. Just, I would love my family to give their blessing on this. Cuz I'll only have one marriage in my life. And if you shall be my husband, you'll be my only one husband. So think three times...

Regular bus took me about 1 hour and 30 minutes to get to Belmopan.

And as I open my computer when I reached home, your twitter can only be seen by permitted person. I guess this was changed since last night. Why are you keeping me away from the other parts of your life...? You still don't trust me, right...?

I feel bad. I feel sad. I feel insecure that you block many things from me. Facebook, msn, now twitter, I'm not sure about phone calls. But I tell myself that I should still trust you. Whether or not you may be hiding something that you don't want me to know. And we all have the right to keep our secrets. So I decide to trust you regardless. I should trust you regardless. I think I'm an idiot. I rather be protected by what you want to show me, than the reality that may hurt me. You're the person in my heart. I'm most volunerable to you. But since I decided to be with you, I shd have trust in you. Your way, my way... I've to remember... cuz I love you. And with today's sweet memory. It shall keep me going, for another week or so. Cuz you said that you may get lost again, even longer... Well, at least I'll have enough work and even entertainment from you to keep me occupied. Ya~ a lot of anime. ha ha!!!

Hope to see you soon baby.


Btw, today is my Best Friend's birthday. Gave her a lil something yesterday. And today I'm with you... Angie and her bf seems to be in trouble these days. Hope this sweet couple can pull it through... I really think they should be together. But it's their relationship, so I can only be a trash bin from time to time and hope the best for them. And I have my own to take care of. (crossing fingers)


Do you know, that it feels SO GOOD to have someone to think about before I fell asleep? Rather than fell asleep lonely, knowing that I'm really lonely. I miss you already, please don't get lost for too long. Til next time we shall meet. (seal with a kiss) I MISS YOU. ... and I think, I did say to you today, "I love you."