I dreamt of you last night... In my dream, I changed my job... I work in the same office with you... my table is right beside yours... you let the people in the office know that we're together not through words, but through close interaction. You were nice to me. Lunch time came, you took me to lunch. You helped me order my food at this new place. But then you don't sit with me. You sit with another girl, I think she is one of your good friend, and eat. Leave me there along with random guests beside me. I looked at you. You looked at me and smile... and then back to your conversation with your friend. I don't really feel jealous, but I wish at least we can sit together... in my dream.
Overall, it's a good dream, cuz you were good to me. But maybe our little discussion over food had build something up in my heart, that I don't like the idea of eating separately. To tell the truth, deep down I'm afraid that you may find another girl who can enjoy eating with you... It's sad to eat alone... It's sad no to be able to share the joy when you eat something you like... same to me, same to you. I'm a vegetarian, to death. It goes as far as, if I can save my life with just one bit of meat/fish/other not-permitted food, I will not. I don't think I have the right to take away life, just to sustain my life... So, I feel that you're stubborn, that you put a never on my food. But who am I to say, when my own diet is more strict and even more stubborn... I wish you could see why and join me. But it's your right to choose your food... (although the animals don't have a so-called right to choose whether they want to be murdered or not...) anyways... still a nice conversation back then...
I'm going to Melchor today. Wish that stupid BTL problem could get fixed soon... it's getting on my nerves... Cuz I could have go to you... just seca that stupid BTL problem.... damn...
I love you, babe. You hadn't say so recently, but I take it that you love me the same and more in your heart. Hope to meet you soon. If I have more "ok" photos, I will send to you, so you can feel me around. :)
