This time, it didn't last long. Not long enough to give myself a happy post... But I was happy tho, until now...
It's the 4th time.. and it's the last time. I don't fancy that my friends will comfort me, cuz I put it onto myself. They gave me enough advices that I will get hurt again... But somehow I didn't regret it. Cuz this time, most of the time I was happy. I think that's enough. I thought I can be cool and calm, but I am not that strong. Had a breakdown last night in the shower, an exhausted one.
Feeling week now... too week to be happy or sad... This is killing... I must had melt some days of my life in that breakdown... Still don't regret it... funny
My heart is in pieces again, like a puzzle... and I need to put it back... By now I should be an expert in putting my heart together... but somehow it's still hard. I don't wish to be an expert in this... I wish I never have to go through this...
Friends are working... have little person to talk to... Guess here is my stress reliever...
[I want to fall asleep and never have to wake up.]
[But I wont, cuz I can't... I have find that person, who loves me as who I am and spoil me as how I deserve...]
張惠妹(A-Mei)
原來你什麼都不要 (So you don't want anything)
作詞：鄔裕康
作曲：郭子
編曲：李柏傑
我知道這樣不好 也知道你的愛只能那麼少
(I know this is not good. I also know the love you can give is that little.)
我只有不停的要 要到你想逃
(I can only ask for more, ask until you want to run away.)
淚濕的枕頭曬乾就好 眼淚在你的心裡只是無理取鬧
(The pillow that got wet by my tears can get dried under the sun. In your heart, tears are only vexatious)
以為在你身後 是我一輩子的驕傲 原來你 什麼都不想要
(I thought that stay behind you is the pride of my life. Until I found out, you don't want anything.)
我不要你的呵護 你的玫瑰 只要你好好久久愛我一遍
(I don't need your pampering or your roses. I just want you to love me good and long for once.)
就算虛榮也好 貪心也好 哪個女人對愛不自私 不奢望
(Maybe it's vanity or perhaps greediness. Which woman is not selfish or hopeful.)
我不要你的承諾 不要你的永遠 只要你真真切切愛我一遍
(I don't need your promises or your forever. I just want you love me truly and sincerely for once.)
就算虛榮也好 貪心也好 最怕你把沈默 當做對我的回答
(Maybe it's vanity or perhaps greediness. What I most scared of is that you reply me with silence.)
原來你 什麼都不想要
(So... You don't want anything...)
