sigh...

Feel sad.... but I am trying to deal with it now...
Apparently, you do block me off from FB, don't ask me why I find out... = =  There is nothing that cannot be find out, unless you don't do it, so ppl say...  Sigh~ I feel kinda hurt, that you block me away, from basically everything.  But maybe then I can focus more on myself, and not on you...  And I don't think it's a good idea to confront you, cuz it wont lead to good ending anyways.

When one is in love, one is vulnerable.  Yet I prefer to be vulnerable and even been hurt, than to never love... So, I guess I am still on a right path, with what I would decide to do, if I knew this would happen.

If fate allows me to choose again, I will still decide to love you.  So there is nothing I should regret.  And since there is nothing else I will do, guess I my only option is to follow my heart, and hope for a happy ending.

I know you don't love me.... you just keep me there... so what... I can only comfort myself that... I'm able to be here.  And, I have enough space to live a normal life.... I should be thankful anyhow~  However, maybe I will shed a tear or two on my pillow... commemorate the innocent that had left me... I hate pretending that everything is ok... I hate to pretend that I don't know about it, so you wont look bad...  Just let it be this way~  After all, I'm not your concern... I can live well like this.  Even when I get hurt, I'm usually able to squeeze out a smile or two... so that I can really feel pathetic of myself...  So I can laugh at myself... So I can try to be ok, even when I'm not...  So I can go with what I want to do, even I know that there is a great chance that I would get hurt in the end, and that is loving you...

I love you~ aint gonna change it.... at least before you don't want me to...