Hurricane Richard came and went. Left behind broken and uprooted trees with flying around roof tops and slanted posts. A nightmare of wind and rain. Sorry to say, but the experience is quite new and exciting for me... @@... The only not so good part is to deal with what Richard left behind. Disaster... However, I believe that we should consider ourselves lucky. Although Richard pull us into another financial crisis of the construction we need to deal with the netting, on top of what we already owe for the house. It's really killing... to people's enthusiasm of a better tomorrow. Should I say the same thing again? Keep being positive... things can't get worse... (Although I know things can... but to just keep the little faith I have...?)
Sunday, after a class at home, the family started to get the garden ready for the hurricane. We tied fences of orchids, and pull them together like a fort, section by section. (And if they fly away... guess they will go together too = =) Then I went to bath, cuz it was raining, and I got wet. Then dinner. Then laptop... and then.... black out... O_O.. Well, I guess it's normal to have black out in a hurricane. I mean, even for safety measure, we wont want to get shock of various reason... so, black out... I then check my phone which I left by my room. Your text!! From when @@!!?? How comes I didn't check earlier!!!! I texted you back... I know that I can sleep well with a smile on my face, cuz I heard from you, and you say.... "I miss you baby"~~ That was so sweet... I miss you too, always. Around 9, bed time. I wonder if you will sleep at regular time, since the hurricane may have an influence... but I still texted you good night, no reply.. hum maybe you're busy with the storm or slept already? Later... hurricane gets near... trees around the house dancing, some cannot withstand the intensity and fell... especially those big old trees... book shelf fell... water sipping through the doors caps... front door, back door, 2nd floor stair door... we see the posts for garden netting are tilted... hearts down to the drain... terrible. I feel scared. I miss you... I want to be with you... although I shouldn't want to pull you into any unpleasant situation... but if I'm with you, maybe I will feel better. So I texted again... third text... no reply. I miss you... After we kinda do all we can do, we went to bed. I did carried a smile with me, thinking about you and your text.
Next morning, Monday, scene was terrible, just the garden itself... I send you another text, no redly. I hope that you are ok. Monday was cleaning day, we rearrange the plants since the netting fell along with the tilted posts... Mom say, at least ten thousands had gone in a few hours... Ay... But... but... at least the plants are unharmed.
Tuesday... report back to work... Still nothing from you... so worried. I send another text... tell you to please reply me when you see it. So worried... and kinda frustrated... Mixed emotion... plz plz... let it only be that still blackout at your area so you hadn't charged your phone... or .... I don't know... please be ok.... no reply... You better don't do it intentionally or just ignore my message, cuz I'm worried the hell outta me, and it ain't a heavenly feeling. No reply.
Today, Wednesday... I cannot hold it any more.... why does my emotion grow so intense?? I called your office around 10:10... I was so nervous and hope that you won't get angry... >__< Jeez... I can feel myself trembling... @@... why does this matter of making a phone call have such a great influence on me? I called, and my heart exceed its speed limit... a gentleman answer and I asked for you. He said that you are in a meeting and will be out in 30 minutes or 1 hour. And asked if I would like to leave a message. I didn't left a message... I mean, what should I say when I shouldn't be calling at the first place? In whose name should I leave, when I'm a total stranger to ppl around you... What if they asked who am I to you... will that caused you inconvenience... ... Anyways, I was glad to hear that you are in a meeting. That means you are fine... and you will contact me when you have the time to... I bet you have a million and one things to do... I bet that... maybe you hadn't charge your phone yet, cuz I just saw that my friend by West Landivar just got electricity. Maybe you want to contact me when things on your hands are not that full, so you can enjoy your time with me... Maybe you're punishing me for not reply you right away when you said you miss me? Maybe you got so caught up with everything, and forgot to text me... Maybe your phone fell into water during the storm, and didn't got my text at all... @@ But you should know that I must have been worried... that that feeling is killing me. that with this crazy imagination I have, as you know, it's not helping me one bit after seeing what people's house become... but I know, I have a feeling that you are safe and alive... I just wanted to make sure... so I don't need to worry about it... Selfish Betty again eh.....?
I'm glad to find out that you are working. So, I didn't called back... Merely knowing your existence is good. Now, I will wait for you to contact me, cuz I think I send too much text...@@ I don't want to break your limit... I mean, you will contact me when you want to, right...
[Babe, I miss you too, and a lot. Please don't let me wait too long.]
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